About a year after I got it I’ve finally started using my instagram (@xinzui). If any of you guys have it too please tell mee, I need some people to follow ;A; 

Decision maths and Economics 2 exams tomorrow! YAAAY EXCITEMENT.

After those, just 7 more to go…OTL

In uni next year i’m going to be a completely different person. I’m going to stop being shy and not be afraid to approach people. I’m going to keep in touch with all my old friends and make an effort to talk to new ones. I will eat more healthily and maintain my swimming training as well as starting to run again. I will practice my piano everyday so that I maintain the standard that I am at the moment. I will do my work on time and put all my effort into making sure that I perform to the best of my ability. I will stop spending money unnecessarily and find a job in order to support myself better. I will look for work experience in order to gain contacts and will read more about a variety of subjects so that I become a wiser, more well read individual. I will become more confident in myself and will not worry about unimportant things like my height and my appearance. I will be organised and arrive on time to appointments. I will become someone that I can be proud of-

Next year at uni I will be exactly the same person as I have always been; just disappointed with myself and the long list of things i’ve failed to do. 

My house is really weirdly distributed and we have two bedrooms downstairs. My brother is scared of sleeping on the ground floor by himself so he’s been sharing my room. When we first moved here this was going to be a temporary thing because my parents were planning on extending and renovating it to make it all bigger and lovely.

7 years later, and they are finally starting to actually do it; I’m leaving for uni (hopefully) in half a year and i’m still sharing a room with my 9 year old brother .SERIOUSLY THO?! -_________________________-

It’s amusing how after 2 years of sixth form people have suddenly started talking to me this week. It appears to have caught on that i’m one of the few in the year that aren’t going to prom, so everyone’s asking me if I can buy a ticket for them as there aren’t many plus ones going around LOL.

I should start a bid for it..

I’ve just come back from watching Sunwook Kim play Brahm’s 2nd Piano Concerto. Omg I’m in love, he was so perfect ;A;

Tbh I have passed over a few of his videos on youtube before, which I enjoyed but they didn’t make much of a lasting impression. But tonight…ughhhh

His playing was just absolutely beautiful, and I loved how he interacted and blended with the orchestra, and if that wasn’t enough he was seeeriously cute. My Dad said a I grinning and practically drooling through the whole thing HAHA. My Mum said I should definitely marry him after I kidnap him. Life sorted.

Today it’s my friend Tara’s birthday. Unfortunately she passed away last year because she didn’t get an organ she needed in time. She was a really beautiful, supportive person who was hilariously funny and never failed to put a smile on people’s faces ^^ 

Signing up for organ donation in itself is a very easy process. Of course, you should discuss these things with those close to you, and it isn’t something that everyone is comfortable with. However, at the same time there are lots of people who will go through life not even looking into it. In fact  I didn’t know anything about organ donation until Tara passed away. Registering as an organ donor can save someone’s life, and maybe if the right person had registered to be an order donor, Tara would still be here today. 

Anyway, as well as this, I just wanted to say, appreciate what you have. It’s a shame that it takes days like this for me to really think about that. So, thankyou all you lovely people who write me messages and tell me off when I say silly things, and follow me and make an effort to talk to me.  I may not say it enough, but I really appreciate it ^^

[For people living in the UK , there is more info on organ donation here: http://www.organdonation.nhs.uk/how_to_become_a_donor/ ]

[Continuation] …although she said the first year is learning in traditional characters which sucks serious ass. WHY NOT SIMPLIFIED FUUUUUU0. Why learn 230948203984 strokes in a word when you can just learn about 5 OTL  I just spent 2 years learning in simplified, and it’s beautiful and amazing, and now I literally remember absolutely no traditional characters. 

Just. whhhhyyy. IS THAT REALLY NECESSARY?!?! -____-

Had a little chat in cantonese with a Chinese lady from SOAS to check i’m not overqualified for the course LOL I’ve only been learning mandarin for 2 years so she said i’m good to go YAAAY.

So now I just need two AA’s and I’ll be doing Economics and Chinese next year at SOAS with a year in Beijing ^0^

Unfortunately idk how am I going to get an A in Further MAths, I underestimated how hard FP2 and FP3 are OTL

I’m going to London tomorrow till Thursday evening so idk if i’ll be on much. It better be sunny from today on because im 500% done with British weather and I need sun. 

Have a good evening everyonee ^0^

Looking through pictures of korean plastic surgery before and afters with Zhia

Some of these people look so completely different after surgery. How do you even know what anyone really looks like over there ._. Imagine marrying someone and then finding out that actually they’ve had half their face chiseled off, and their eyelids poked in, and their skin bleached O_O

Admittedly they all look really nice afterwards, but at the same time they all look exactly the same. They obviously all want the same kind of features, but in doing so I think the ‘beauty’ is lost slightly because it’s not unique at all. I’ve seen so many pictures of this ‘ulzzang’ look now, that the novelty has completely worn off for me :L 

Regardless, i’m not hating on the choices these people make. It’s up to you what you do with your face, and if anyone fancies cutting my chin fat off then they are more than welcome, but it does rather make people skeptical of anyone who is pretty. If you know that half of the girls you are seeing have had surgery to achieve that look, then do you still see them as beautiful?